The thrill the hunt
The highs the lows
Here comes the crash
And so it goes
All the while you blame yourself

A fix that starts beneath your skin
The rolling dice
You slip it in 
As if you had no other choice
The game, the hype, the girls, the fame

Wanting to have it has become a habit
Wanting to take control but control has taken me
So this will be the last dinner and diamond earrings 
I had to have it now I can’t have you

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A fix that starts beneath your skin
The rolling dice
You slip it in 
As if you had no other choice
The game, the hype, the girls, the fame

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You ask, I do
You give, I take
You love, I fake
These things do not apply
When I get this high

Don’t know how the ending goes
As long as the embers glow
There’s still time to light this flame
Burn it bright land this flight
I need to curse a lot
Gives me control where I know it’s lost
Back home, where it corrodes

Such a tragedy that no one knows 
What it’s like to lose a family
That’s alive but a special kind of dead to me
While I’m getting cosigned by proven contenders 
Losing all the pretenders
Trying to keep my mind alive
Eating bullets if I had to work a nine to five
Sorry mom, sorry dad
If you care I’m doing fine 
Loving life
Free of guilt
Loving you
Sorry that I had to do all the things I wanted to
Sorry that I had to do all the things I needed to

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