You've got to turn this around. Pick Your feet up off the ground. This is your moment. This is your breakdown. Don't let it haunt you. Don't let it go. Your confidence kills you. This cripples, consumes you.  This is what you wished for. Don't let it go.

Back and forth I sway into this tidal wave. The pressure's forming. It's building up, I'm ready. Back and forth I sway into this tidal wave. The pressure's forming. It's caving in, I'm falling out.

You've got to hold your hand so tightly. You can never let them see the king that you've been holding, the ace that still means nothing. One more step, two deep breathes, this is what you wished for. Don't let it go. 

Did you look for the reasons behind it?