Gift or Curse

Early morning and my head feels like a subway train
Not stopping on my line
All these emotions live inside me and they taunt my heart
No piece in my lifetime

I feel I’m waiting for the sunlight to grace my head
And turn on my life switch
But should I, should I, should I feel that that’s wrong?

I feel I’m walking a tightrope
But I have the strength to walk on through
I choose to live with confusion
And live each day as if it’s something new
But I have to understand o why
I seem to lose my mind all the time
Is it pleasure or pain, gift or a curse?

I’m always riding on the tip of my tongue 
With my freedom of speech
My constant battle with my inner self
It drains the very life out of me
Every time I share my thoughts
They always build a wall
What am I gonna do, what am I gonna say

I need if know if my love will decide
Choosing to live my life all the time
I’m always a little too much, too late
Would you contradict your soul if I
Choose to love my life this time
You would know I’m a little too much, too late


Is it pleasure or pain, gift or a curse?
I need to know if what we have is
Give or take, better or worse