He Left

I'm so far from perfect
Wasted half of my lifetime
Hoping people wouldn’t notice
My pain deep, the inside

I felt so small and pointless
I  tried to change my world
I just couldn’t make him happy
I was such a prozac girl…

He left, he left, left me with nothin’  
but the best part of my life it seems
My kids, more time, to finally do things my way
A little time to chase my dreams
Had I known, had I seen, life could 
be so right after being so wrong
I might have left him long ago… 
but he left… so long

For years I hoped
He’d wake up, and see the good in me
But that’s not the way it went …no
That was a fantasy

I prayed, I pleaded,
for strength on bended knees
And I woke up Sunday morning… 
and God had answered me 

Chorus

Sometimes I fear I might not be up 
for all the jobs I know I must do
I’ve got my hats all laid out for tomorrow
A mother, daughter, a sister a provider too